Don’t Erase Me

I finally decided that I would want to go a therapist to see how she could help with my worrying and anxiety. I was encouraged by my friend Julia because she said if I felt like it would help I should do it. John and Briana also said it was a good thing if it can help me feel better. I’d been looking forward to today because I wanted to see what would happen. As we got closer to it though, I couldn’t think of things I wanted to say to her.

The therapist’s name is Amy. When we first arrived we filled out some paper work and she seemed very friendly. I could hear her playing solitare in her office while my mom and I signed things. I noticed that the walls were painted very nuetral colors and it seemed relaxed in there. I saw a thing on the wall that made me stop and think. It said, “Bloom where you’re planted” I think it means that you should make the best of your situation.

the Ungame

Since it was the first time we met, we just played a game for the hour. It was called the “Ungame”. There was no point but to casually learn some things about me and my mom. Some questions were simple like, what do you like to read, and some were kind of deep like, what would you do if you were told you were going to die soon. I had fun, it was a pleasant experience. Although I do feel that since my mom answered some causal questions before I did that maybe Amy will get the wrong impression that my mom has decided things for me. But she hasn’t so I’ll just make that clear next time.

Just the first meeting was helpful because some things she said were reassuring or I was happy that she had a certain take on it. Such as, she believes this will be a learning experience for me.  Also when I had a question asking “what is one fantasy you have?” I answered that one I have is that in 15 years I’m married to John. I agreed with her when she stated her opinion that “that’s a good thing, you should date people you would consider marrying”

I’m going to go see her again sometime next week. I felt quite content and relaxed when I left today so I hope that’s the same for the next time. I think this will help.