Don’t Erase Me

I’ll be in Hawaii in 2 weeks!!!!!! WOOO!!!!! YEAH! AWESOME! My mom, aunt, cousin and I are all going to Hawaii on the 8th of March. I’m so excited!! Who knows what fun we’ll get up to! Yay!!

Wonderful Ke'e beach

So I’m sure many of you are wondering why I like toast so much. Because of that (and because I want to tell you..) I’m going to share my “recipe” for perfect toast. El pan tostado perfecto.

First, I love potato bread, I’m not sure why but it’s the best.

Then, it’s toasted only slightly so it’s warm and a little tiny bit crunchy, there’s not much browning on the bread

Next, lightly spread salted butter all over a side of bread and place on a folded paper towel (I’m not sure why, but that’s just how I eat toast - no plate, a paper towel)

Finally, enjoy your perfect toast which ever way you like, sitting down, standing up, on your head, in the air, in a box, with a fox…. whatever

Toast!

As much as my dad probably would not like to admit, I am 15 this year. Which means I can get my permit when I’m 15 1/2  or before then if I’m enrolled in a drivers ed class. I was excited to be able to do that. With hearing people at school talk about drivers ed and seeing John drive himself home after dropping me off, I just wanted to more.

I mentioned it to my mom a couple times and sometimes gave hints like, “I want my permit”. So we have now looked at dates when I could take it and times that wouldn’t interrupt other things I’m doing and we’ve found them!

I will start driver’s ed on April 13th. Woo!!!! How fun!

I’m excited

I finally decided that I would want to go a therapist to see how she could help with my worrying and anxiety. I was encouraged by my friend Julia because she said if I felt like it would help I should do it. John and Briana also said it was a good thing if it can help me feel better. I’d been looking forward to today because I wanted to see what would happen. As we got closer to it though, I couldn’t think of things I wanted to say to her.

The therapist’s name is Amy. When we first arrived we filled out some paper work and she seemed very friendly. I could hear her playing solitare in her office while my mom and I signed things. I noticed that the walls were painted very nuetral colors and it seemed relaxed in there. I saw a thing on the wall that made me stop and think. It said, “Bloom where you’re planted” I think it means that you should make the best of your situation.

the Ungame

Since it was the first time we met, we just played a game for the hour. It was called the “Ungame”. There was no point but to casually learn some things about me and my mom. Some questions were simple like, what do you like to read, and some were kind of deep like, what would you do if you were told you were going to die soon. I had fun, it was a pleasant experience. Although I do feel that since my mom answered some causal questions before I did that maybe Amy will get the wrong impression that my mom has decided things for me. But she hasn’t so I’ll just make that clear next time.

Just the first meeting was helpful because some things she said were reassuring or I was happy that she had a certain take on it. Such as, she believes this will be a learning experience for me.  Also when I had a question asking “what is one fantasy you have?” I answered that one I have is that in 15 years I’m married to John. I agreed with her when she stated her opinion that “that’s a good thing, you should date people you would consider marrying”

I’m going to go see her again sometime next week. I felt quite content and relaxed when I left today so I hope that’s the same for the next time. I think this will help.

I’m writing to tell you all happy Valentine’s Day (after the fact) and to share a little bit of mine.

In the morning I woke up and almost immediately started cleaning the kitchen to get ready for my Tea Party!! I invited John over to have a little tea party with me, although he didn’t know what it was. All he knew was that he had to look nice! (and he did ) My mom and I made little sandwiches that were his favorite. My dad made us some cheesecake, we had some chocolate dipped strawberries, and cheese and crackers. It all looked very cute.

The table!

When John finally arrived, he couldn’t stop smiling. He thought everything was so cute. He also kept on mentioning that he knew I spent a lot of time on it. I appreciate him noticing After we had enjoyed our mini sandwiches and other yummy treats, we went outside for a walk. We walked up Briana’s house, wishing her a Happy Valentine’s Day too.

My favorite part of the day was when we came back. It’s kind of hard to explain but everything seemed relaxed. I played a few songs on my dad’s acoustic guitar while John messed around with my computer. Then my mom got him to hum along with me. We’re still working on singing

John and I enjoying our snacks

Around 7:00 we got together some brownies we had made earlier. My brother, John and I brought them to our friends and rounded them up to go get something to eat. We ended up going to Jack in the Box and enjoyed talking about pretty much anything.

Before he went home, John wanted to help clean up. He’s a very good helper. We then talked a bit over the -interweb-.

singing and humming :)

I had a great day, fantastic, marvelous,
stupendous, lovely, magnificent
oh! I’m full of words.